“When she saw the bracelet she cried out, ‘Now I know you’ve really forgiven me,'” I said shaking my head. “She flew at me, knocked over napkins, banged into chairs to hug me.” My head continued to shake from side-to-side, “The bracelet doesn’t mean what she thinks.”
“I still don’t know why you gave it to her,” Jenna replied.
“It was her birthday,” I shrugged. “She wanted real jewelry. It was on clearance, less than I’d budgeted, I knew she’d love it, so I got it for her.”
“But why would you give Caroline such a great present after she abandoned you?” Jenna demanded. “I just don’t get it.”
“I wasn’t thinking of that,” I shrugged. “The bracelet was so wonderful and I was so happy that’s she’d love it,”
“She didn’t deserve it,” Jenna pouted.
“Maybe not. But can you imagine looking for a gift based on what someone deserves?” I shuddered.
“Yes,” Jenna said.
“What a lot of wasted energy,” I said. “I’d rather not give any gift.”
“Why go to her party?”
“Her sister invited me; the girls wanted me there,” I raised one shoulder in a shrug. “I thought it would be okay since there were other people.” I shook my head again, “I just wish she understood.”
“That you don’t trust her?”
“Yeah. NO. I do trust her.She’ll do the same thing again.”
“Of course she will,” Jenna said.
“She hasn’t changed. It’s all about her. She feels safe around me now she knows I don’t have cancer. She doesn’t even imagine how I feel.”
“So you shouldn’t have given her the bracelet.”
“I couldn’t go without giving her a gift. Why would I give her something she didn’t want? That would be no gift at all.”
“Why go to the party?” Jenna asked.
“I can’t just abandon Farrah and Adhita.”
“I guess not,” Jenna mused. She shuddered, “But you’ll be around Caroline.”
“Maybe I’ll learn to forgive her,” I said.
“She doesn’t deserve it,” Jenna replied.
One corner of my mouth lifted in a half smile, “Probably not. Who does?”